a thought of you

I have let you go from my heart, but why do the thoughts of you have to come at me at night? I’m tired of how my brain keeps picturing you in my head and the way you smiled because of me. I’m tired of gaining the fractures of memories we had. The tiniest little detail that you did to make me happy, but then I took it for granted. The heavy feeling in my heart when I remember of letting you down. 

The pictures of us, although I thought I had already wiped them off from my memory, but why do some of them keep coming up at me like they want me to remember you? What did you do to me? 

I know that loving you harder will not make you stay or choose me, I let you go I really do. But the time I started to not thinking about you, the more those memories popped up and I’m sick of them. You were smiling in those memories and I long for it.